Faith is facing reality but not being discouraged by it. – Rick Warren
Over the weekend, I had the best little shower held for me and my new baby love. It was a morning of fellowship with women who had spent 10 months with me in a deep, raw, excruciatingly truthful study. Women who were once complete strangers to me. This study is called a step study and it’s part of the Celebrate Recovery program. Have you ever heard of it? It’s for people who have hurts, habits, or hang ups. So pretty much for everyone. Codependency, depression, and anxiety – those were my hurts and hang ups that I couldn’t seem to get over by myself. When you want something bad enough or your life is that broken, bold steps to make a change may become an option on the table. This was definitely over my boldness threshold, but I wanted it and needed it – badly. So I dove in. It wasn’t easy. Opening old wounds is not a good time. Taking an honest look at yourself and then sharing it out loud in a group of strangers felt like jumping off a cliff. It got easier. Instead of dreading the class that I committed to, I started to look forward to it. The more I studied and the more transparent I was with myself, the closer I became to the Lord. Chains broke and my perspective changed. I was around like-minded women in a safe place. I was surrounded by love, prayer and the Holy Spirit while I shared pieces of my broken life. Radical honesty with myself and others. It was the most vulnerable position I’ve ever been in and provided the most healing and freedom that I could ever imagine. Are all my issues gone now? Nope. Has all the pain disappeared? Nope. Am I committed to this journey of healing through Jesus Christ and seeking His will for my life? Yes. I’ve never felt more ready to bring new life into this world. Thank you to my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ, and to my “Step Sistas” for the beautiful relationships. Oh – and for the baby gifts. Baby gifts are always so much fun.
Squash Pancakes 
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